貌似是key to my heart.Boy you put me on the spot I don't know what to say
But I'm trying anyway
Like my hearts gonna drop
My mind drifts away and I can't control the pains
Words are spinning in my head
Don't know why I'm holding back
I should just tell you how I'm feeling yeah heh
But I don't wanna act a fool
Don't wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don't know what you gonna do
So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I'm feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart
The more I brush it off
Tell myself it's nothing at all
Deeper I fall
And I imagine everyday
A thousand different ways
How you respond to what I say
Am I getting lost in my dreams?
Are you unreachable to me?
Cause these butterflies just won't go away
I don't wanna act a fool
Don't wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don't know what you gonna do
So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I'm feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart
But if I never tell you then you'll never know
And the secret is get-ting heavy to hold
This is more than just a crush
So I may stut-ter when I speak
And my knees may get a little weak
But I've got nothing to lose and only you to gain
Tell me do you feel the same
But I don't wanna act a fool
Don't wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don't know what you gonna do
So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I'm feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart
About ten years ago, when I just graduated from high school, I made up my mind to go abroad for studying. Because I think it's a good choice at that time, and everything just seemed should go on in that way. But eventually, after several times hard trying, and be hit and hit again, I did not make it. What a shame! Sigh... That time, that time was definitly a dard period in my life. I was very frustrated, even felt there was no future. I believe people can imagine my situation there. When you make a decision, and as the only way, definetely you want to get it. But the truth just don't go as your willings. It's so helpless. I can do nothing with it, and actually I didn't know what I can do.
Today, when I'm so eager to join the fashion retail industry, having been tried so hard and keeping lookingfor opportunities and waiting, yet I failed. I have to say that I have already done my best. Sometimes I just don't understand why god could not give me a chance, because what I think I'm lack of is only a chance, a chance to prove that I can do it. Maybe it's the issue of timing. Or maybe god thinks that I'm still uncapable. Sometimes, the things are just like this, the more you want it, the further you are away from it.
I'm thinking that if every ten years is a hurdle in mylife. Because so far it is. Thus, I'm guessing what's the next hurdle after another ten years. I'm not a lucky guy who has a so smooth life, I mean I have met the obstacles like study, career, then what's the next? Jesus... Who knows? I really hope my life could be smoother. But anyway, that's still too far away, I even don't know if I can survive for another ten years. So, just take care of the stuffs in front of me, and do all that I can do, just try to make everything perfect.
These days I'm always thinking this, in this world, there are several kinds of people. One kind of people, they lead a very smooth life. They didn't meet anything too difficult. It just seems like that they very easily get everything they want, or even sth. not really necessary. They dont' need to worry about their lives. All the things seem has been prepared enough before they come to this world. A fair family, a prestigious school, a well-paid job, and a lovely spouse. So happy ahh... But I think this kind of people are just the minorities. There are not so many lucky guys.
And the another kind of ppl, they are always in a mess. Whatever they do, they just can't do a good job. Maybe they're unlucky or just because they dpnt' do their best, and they're lazy. So, it's hard for them to accomplish even a thing in their whole life. But still they live in their ways. And I also think this kind of ppl are the minorities as the first kind.
So, the third kind of ppl, they are the most common ones I believe. They don't come from any prestigious families. If they want to achieve sth., then it must by their continuous hard working. And if they don't make their 120% efforts, then they won't get anything at last. Therefore,in this situation, let's see it in this way, the good point is that as long as they're willing to pay, then surely they gain sth. back in this or that way. But if they get a little achievements and think that they can take a break and enjoy it, however, they are wrong. Because when they are resting, the thing they already got would be soon taken back. Poor... Hence, this kind of people just can not stop even for a minute. They must keep walking and walking in case being left behind.
I think I belong to the third type. Must do everything myself, and work hard and harder, because no one could give me the things I need. However, in a positive way, I also have the faith that if I can put all my efforts on my target, I'll make it, no matter it's bad luck there or anything, no one can stop me. Although it may take some time, but I know it will be bright one day. So, I'm always doing all that I can do, in my own pace.
Well, huh... this year is not so good. But the good thing is that I still have learned a lot of new stuffs and still own so much. So, I guess I still should thank the god. What's more, I believe there will be a great 2011!
P.S. I still don't know what to do with my space 'cause it will be shut off soon. Just let it go? or relocate? I don't blog much now... Hard to tell the reason.... So, is it really necessary to live there anymore?
Artist: Jessica Jarrell
Album: This is one of the themes from the movie " The back-up plan".
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When Love Story Meets Viva La Vida
Piano & Cello...
This is a melody which shows up the communication between two totally different kinds of instruments...
I firstly found this music video at Kaixin.com and the same time fell into it...
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